Burst into tears

i can't make it.

somehow i can foresee this might happen.. but at the same time.. i do put hope that.. who knows... its my luck..( since a lot of ppl wish me good luck) i will get through this interview..

after all... things happen for a reason..rite..? maybe.. Allah has a bigger plan to me..

xleh blah situasi kat meeting room td... En.Bashir: we will definitely call u for the next interview.. ~ ak agak blur kat situ.. like... errr... so.. i can't pursue my LLB this year?.. ya.. begitulah nmpak ny... then poof!... mata ak dah berkaca2 dah kat situ...then mami hug me..calm me down... hadoi.. malu nyer ak!!!!!! emosi ak mmg break down time tu.. dgn mlm td nye hal... semak!..semak!... bawak la smpai ke siang... org yg paling tention dgn ak..Farouq... ~ sorry Mok...i know u pissed off with me... hmm... ntah2 Tuhan nk ak smbung dgn ko kot....kita sambung sesama ye mok.. bosan la ak kalu xde geng nnt...

apa pun.. trima kasih kpd semua yg mendoakn ak..minta maaf kalu ak ngecewakan.. mugkin xde rezki thn ni.. atau mugkin juga... undang-undang bkn takdir ak...

Cuak

Skg ni..ak kat Delima,panik..sbb pagi sat gi ada interview LLB... rasa mcm xnk p je interview sat gi..pasai...i'm not prepared!!!!

yes..i know..i know... its my fault... ak pn mcm ntah.. bila uitm anta msg soh semak pangilan temudugaa.. ak mcm... aik, cepat nye!!! keja pun blum ni..ap lak ak nk jwb nnt..? dgn masa tu pindah umah bagai... kat umah baru ni..masa tu..ak mmg xde port la nk punggah kotak2 ajaib ak ni... hah.. td.. sblum smpai sini br ak pungah.. dah jmpa yg di cari..letak fail dlm beg.. now..here i am.. rs nk nagis!!!!! ~ myesal skg dah tiada guna ny...

cuak nye nk pi pagi sat ni...!!!! lagu mn ni wey.. ang habaq mai kat ak? even simple Q.. ak smpai la ni..xbole nk draf sbrang jwpan.. '' tell me about yourself''.. Padan muka ak kn... last minute ny keja..cam ni la.. nk stand down... xleh... brapa lama lg ak nk bertapa kt umah... betul x? option yg tingal... nk xnk... pagi jap g... SENYUM dan ak akn berusha utk mgurangkn ke-gelabah-an ak nt..( doa kn ak ek korang )

ak ngantok dah ni... mmg penat pikir nk jwb pe tp ketas ak dok bersih lg.. cuak la weh.. bole ke ak mjawab kang? ak ni..dah lama bebenor xspeaking... harap2 pg ni d permudah kn urusan ku...

cuak habis dah ak... Farouq xabeh2 takot kn ak.. dia siap tny ak psl CPC, Criminal bagai... yg ak dtg ni.. stakat bw bj nk p interview, sijil2 yg berkaitan dan toiletries... itu sajooo... terbaik sgt... tiba ak rs nyesal pulak berkampung kat sini...tp..ak takut kalu gerak dr umah... nnt jd pape kt tgh jln..lagi haru... sekurang ny skg ak da kat uitm dah.. itu yg pnting kn? ke..x?? hmmm...

Ap pun ak dah smpai.. what..half way.. xkn nk benti kn... hadap kn saja perkara ni..prepare xprepare..blakang kira..ak yg tangung kesan ny nnt... so..on the other side of coin.. just do it..rite?!hopefully eveything is gonna be okay.. insyaAllah.. wish me luck!!

Jendela

Hmm.. syg nk tingal kn rumah ni.. especially, jendela di kamar ku ( sastera lebey sikit kali ni, mood, touching ni ).. byk kenangan indah dan menakutkn dpt ku lihat dr jendela ku ini.. semua nya tentang percintaan kami dulu..

Tiap kali dia ada kat area umah ak.. mst dia msg: B naik atas. Abg dah kat area umah b, 5 min lg smpai. Ak sk bila dpt msg mcm tu..heeee...sbb dpt main intai2 d jendela ku...hah.. comel kn?! Xkira waktu..siang ke mlm ke... kalu pkul 3 pg dia lalu ak akn intai dia d jendela ku... lepas rindu ~eceh..mcm xleh jmp je... poyo ek..

Mmg geli hati memori di jendela ni... dia boleh pusing 2,3 kali saje je lalu kalu waktu siang la..~ kena cover line weh.. sat lg.. kena pelangkong dgn bapak ak.. naya je... kalau malam, dia lepak la kat depan jln tu dan kami akn saling mengintai.. agak sweet aktiviti ni..slalu dia lepak xsmpai 5 min pun... takut nnt org ingat dia perompak yg tgh survey umah lak.. by the way.. this is one of the acara wajib tiap kali ak ad kt umah..main intai2..

Ad gak situasi.. kdg2 tu dia lalu,xbenti pun..just toleh and say( dia call la time tu) : bye-bye B.. siap melambai2 lagi kt ak. ( dia agak adorable d situ).. Kalu ms ktorg intai2 tu dia buat 3G..ak leh agak dia tgh semak giler time tu...

Oh..hah...dulu kn dia ad keta tau.. utk buat drift... geram gak ak time tu.. susah pyah dpt duit claim ( excident dulu) relax saje dia labur duit kt keta tu... last2.. dia tolak kt org...lupakn..jd.. ms dia ada keta ni.. wah.. bkn main eksen dia dgn ak.. lalu dpn umah... nk ak tgk dia buat drift.. cute la dia time tu... brapa kali ntah dia lalu dgn keta tu.. lupa lak keta pe... yela mn nk ingt..ak xpenah naik pun..

Bila ak tgk rumah baru ak tu.. mmg mengamit memori di rumah ni.. if we are still couple, xyah ssh2 nk msg.. ketok botol pun leh dgr,. Ala2 gaya P.Ramlee gitu..Dkt sgt tingkap tu dgn jln.. silap hr bulan.. xyah pkai fon pun.. nk adventure sikit, guna 2 tin kosong dan juga tali buat tefon... mcm best je...~ anyway.. it won’t happen... we are done.. (to my future couple, don’t dream to have this activity)

Dear Mrs. KZ, i have no intention or any attempt to offend u what so ever with this post.. it just... hmmm...camne ntah nk ckp... kenangan di rumah lama... tu je... i’m sorry if u did feel that way..

Well... its a new environment, new life, new attitude ( cross my fingers) , hopefully i’m gonna be okay.~ InsyaAllah

In my own way

No matter how many times i’m reborn, i’ll embrace my sorrow as i run,

I met a sad betrayal. Makes me lose sight of who i am,

I’m going down a trackless path because just standing there and waiting will never get me anywere.

I will not stop, at any time i wish to search for the truth,

I will never forget and i will never lose you.

I’ll still embrace my happiness as i run.

Even if i break free from you, in my own way, i wanna change

Before i change, you were there; before you change, i was there.

If we are able to see the same view again,

Someday, i will come back to you.

In my own ways, i wanna change.

Bermula nyer

“Dgn kuasa bulan,akan menghukum mu! “ lebey kurang camni la bunyi nyer dialog wajib SailorMoon tiap kali penjahat dlm keadaan lemah. Ak bkn nk cter asal usul SailorMoon ni, pg td ak tgk citer ni ulang balik.. huah.. excited la ak.. bajet Satria Bertopeng ada..skali xde..~ceyyy.. ap pun.. ni kn citer zmn ‘kita’ kanak2 dulu.. pd ak SailorMoon satu fenomena baru la.. sbb... ada nya Satria Bertopeng ni, pd ms tu yg ak rs watak citer katon yg 1.1 nya lelaki nmpak ensem.. xkn nk harapkn Doraemon? Thundercats? (Contoh)

Sejak dari tu la.. mn2 citer anime dr tv Tokyo( contoh) watak2 lelaki mesti kebanyakkanya ensem.. ni cuma pandangan ak la.. to name a few character y ensem d mata ku... Naruto: Sasuke and cikgu Kakashi (dpt boyfren camni mst best kn? ~gatal ) Get Bakers: Makubex ( cool giler! )and Amano Kenji ( bila dia jd Thunder Emperor , kalu masa dia kena marah dgn Bun/ Snake Eyes tu atau Akabani Kudo ajak dia lawan, dia akn nmpak sgt adorable! ~ faint ), Bleach: abg Rukia tu, ( smart kn?! )lupa lak nm dia pe..~ sorry la xingat nm..ak bkn la anime freak.. mcm ak ckp, ak tgk sbb ad yg ensem.. hoh blm masuk lagi.. Ouran High School Club!! Honey Senpai!!!!! ~ ops..bkn ensem ye.. ni dah kategori lain.. ‘kawaiiii’ – moe effect.. heee...pastu Fruit Basket(semua tu ak rasa ensem je)

Jd..smpai skg pun ak tgk katon/anime ni sbb utama nye ni la.. ada watak yg ensem..dan yg kedua nya sbb citer yg cam best..antaranyer..Detective Conan, Inuyasha, Samurai X, Card Captor Sakura, Hell Girl, Fate Stay Nite, One Piece, Slamdunk, Fullmetal Alchemist (Edward Elric yg ensem!) Shaman King ( Asakura Yeo dan kembar jahat dia, Hao), M.A.R (Alvin yg smart) dan mcm2 lg la yg d tyg kn tv ni.. oh tp ak xlayan Shin Chan(xminat)

Walauapa pun.. skong la animasi tempatan.. yeah! Upin& Ipin!! Dan yg terbaru Boboi Boy! ( best kn kalu jd cam Gopal, bila dia takut atau dalam bahaya, dia sentuh pape jd ceklat! )

maaf ye kalu de tersalah eja nm watak2.. main sedap nyebut je ni.. =__= ''