Which is urs?

Seeing is believing 

or

Believing is seeing

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Till then. 

kekadang ia menyapa

ingin sekali bersua muka, bertentang mata, melihat sendiri kalian..

ingin sekali menjadi hakim menilai hujah kalian..

ingin sekali menjadi penonton yang menyaksikan drama yg maha epik..live..

ingin sekali menguji kekuatan fizikal sendiri, mahukah kalian bertarung dengan ku?

yeah,, a fair fight.. bare hands.. no weapons.. just our skills,energy levels, and strength..

ingin sekali ku jadikan beberapa dari kalian sebagai punching bag ku..

biar puas hati ini..biar lepas segala nya..

ingin sekali ku jeritkan.. betapa kejam nya kalian..

ingin ku hemburkan segala nya di sini..
biar kalian mengetahui rahsia yang ku simpan rapi selama ini..

apa kan daya diri ni... sangat lemah.. tidak mampu melakukan semua itu..

mugkin kah kerana ada perasaan sayang pada kalian?..

tidak mampu untuk membenci kalian.. mungkin kah kerana bersalah pada kalian?

tidak mampu untuk bersikap biadap terhadap kalian.. bimbang kalian akan cedera..
tidak mampu memarahi kalian.. kerana diri  juga bersikap hina terhadap kalian..

aneh perasaan ini.. gembira bila kalian gembira..

adakah ia tangisan dalam kegembiraan?

jadi nya..

firasat itu benar belaka.. semuanya bercampur-campur..

sejak dpt panggilan tu.. memang rasa tak sedap hati.. sampai sekarang..

tiap kali ingat kan hal ni.. memang rasa nak MUNTAH... 

i wish i can breach the contract..

demmit.. my part is only waiting until stipulated time.. which argh.. killing me... i cant do anything, for now..

on the contrary.. if i breached it.. then i wont know the result.. err.. not really actually... 

daaaa...mmg leh jangka pun...

but again... erm... everyone deserved equality and fairness.. having a pre judgement won't help..

xpela... ak akn usaha kn utk tidak mensabaotaj perjanjian itu.. insyaAllah..

ap pun sepatah dua kata utk penutup bicara: 

hate is a strong words but i really, really, really don't like you.

mari kita tgk sapa yg kena !!!

familiar xdialong ni? alaaa.. ni dlm citer P.Ramlee.. Ali Baba dan 40 Penyamun.. 

heeee... i dont trust u.... how on earth u think i believe in u? like... seriously .. can u really settled those matter in 7 days? 


sorry i have doubt on u.. can't help my self... im bored.. im exhausted.. with this endless drama...


anyway.. good luck.. have a nice day to u!!!!!! 

Nak yang macam ini boleh tak?

Tiba2 adik ak tny, ko bila nk ada bf ni? Umur ko dah brapa hah? Thn bila ko nk kawin ni? Kwn2 ak dok sibuk tny psl pe ko xde bf lg. xsabar gak nk tgk ko kawin.

Begitu ye.. bukan main soklan nya..Comel la pulak bila bdk2 yg bertanya hal gini kat ak.. Bkn melawan arus, sakit tu ada lagi, takut pun ada, fobia xilang lagi, freak out..lagi la…always ok! Isu ni bkn keutamaan ak skg ni. Alaaa.. mak & abah xnk ak kawin awal.. buat pe mgalabah cari, betul x? bior jela…

Andai kata ak nk mencari.. ak nk yg mcm ni..boleh x? ke melampau sgt?

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep.. wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you’re just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and lucky his to have you.. The one who turns to his friends and says, ‘that’s her’

I don’t pretend to know what love is for everyone, but I can tell you what it is for me; love is knowing all about someone, and still wanting to be with them more than any other person, love is trusting them enough to tell them everything about yourself, including the things you might be ashamed of, love is feeling comfortable and save with someone, but still getting weak knees when they walk into a room and smile at you.

Tekaan

Zamir.. ko ingat x kali terakhir ko membebel kat ak kat wall fb sblum ko terminate account fb tu? isu nya apa? bila tekaan kita betul.. mmg mlas nk ckp.. ~ lebih kurang gini la kn? ( malas ak nk email ko, takut bgosip, hahaha)

baik lah crite nya.. alahai... ak kn.. dgn hamba Allah yg sorang ni... ak pun xtau ap mslah dia dgn ak.. dia.. sgt la takut kalau tekaan ak betul... ak pn xfhm...adakah bila tekaan ak betul..ego dia akn tercabar? punya lah berusha nk cover line dgn ak... last2.. pap.. tadaaa... kn da kua statement dr pihak lain... dgn erti kata lain... tekaan ak tu betul dr awal lg... 

idok le teman nk mdabik dada bila tekaan teman ni betul.. cume ny heran.. nk takut pe kalu betul? iye dok? bkn nye dia rugi pe pun... 

Ko tau Mir.. bde ni dah jd byk kali tau... dia xprasan atau buat2 xsedar hal ni..xtau la ak.. like.. slalu sgt tekaan ak betul... sgt tidak adventure di situ...

apa pun ak geram dgn dia... hai... lama2 mcm ni... bole hypertention ak!... confrontation adalah sesuatu yg useless utk org ini... kalu org gini minta khidmat ak bela diri... pergh... ak rugi ok!... silap hr bulan mmg dia pjenayah nya.. ckp dia.. tindakan dia... xsama... kalu la ak leh tau ap kata hati dan otak dia... mugkin itu pun saling berlawanan.... ( ok.. agak hyperball kat situ , hehe )

Dia berdendam dgn ak ke Mir? pelik la dia tu... ke ak pun pelik sbb dok layan dia? huah..

kesimpulan nya... ak bosan bila tekaan ak betul... maksud ak bila mgenai org tu la.. dari 1 segi.. mmg ak sengih bila tau tekaan ak betul.. tapi.. dari 1 segi... nape perlu buat mcm tu? mgaku kan senag.. be frank.. tak pun.. ntah2.. dia suka kat ak tak??? hahahhahahaha... - ok..ak harap ko xpegsan!... bye Mir!

( psst: seriusly.. jgn balik slagi ko xdpt PhD tu..insyaAllah ko bole buat.. bertahan ye! i have faith on u, we all did.Good luck in ur research Muhammad Zamir Othman!!! )

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